Towards Futurity

alternative angles of the moon, captured by Kenzi Crash

Hello lover

I will admit—I got emotional watching videos of the Artemis II launch. I told my friends about it and was lightly teased about being propagandized to. Ironically I had plans to watch Project Hail Mary the next day, which I loved; I adored Rocky’s enthusiasm and marveled at the feat of his puppeteering, and found the movie to be quite faithful to the book. Project Hail Mary proved to be a perfect fictional counterpart to the collective effervescence I experienced watching clips of Artemis II and all the neverbeforeseen angles of the Moon they’ve sent back since. I felt the familiar sparkling urge of curiosity, to go full steam ahead into a space obsession and have it inspire a space-themed session. Human confrontation of nothingness. Human enclosed in the box of the Universe. Human meets a creature who looks strange but seduces their spacesuit off. Human tries something new and gets to see angles of a celestial body never before discovered. Art and living can be powerful that way; there is a difference in the logical intellect of description and the triggering of feeling, of experience that you get when you see pieces of yourself reflected, refracted, reframed.

I am adamant that there is power in hope in a hopeless world. I am setting intentions this month to claw glitches in our present, steadfast portals into otherworlds full of pleasure and thrill that we can keep as our own as the world around us crumbles into war and strife. The world I want is one of laughter, of connection, of wonder. There is a wonder in feeling something you’ve thought was long lost, regreeting a friend inside of you that you haven’t seen in years.

It reminds me of a reflection I received years ago after a scene with a wonderful and very experienced masochist.

Thinking of you and that session fondly, M

It can be so horrendously disheartening to feel unable to grasp control in this hellscape. But we actually do have a choice in how the future goes—we can grasp it in our hands and mould it to our vision of the future, and meet new versions of ourselves in the surprises we encounter along the way. If you’d like to join me, click the link below~